Nothing says I am fat like a sweater....

Nothing says I am fat like a sweater! Now, I am not being down on myself, that is just my reality right now. Tonight I have this event I am going to. You need to dress up. I have pants that fit now as I went out and purchased some but none of my shirts fit well enough to close the

Collar.

So, I went to the mainstay... A work shirt that is white with a sweater on. Dressed but not in the fashion I wanted. I wanted to wear a white shirt or dark shirt with a nice tie but none of my shirts fit well enough to do that.

I need some good dress up clothes. I like to look really sharp when I go out and although I look good, I really wanted to close the top button and wear a tie tonight.. I should have planned ahead...

On the bright side, I have exercised these last few days. No, no gym, but I have walked both sets of dogs for extended periods and I have not sat still for long on my two days "off."

Tomorrow is Sunday and I believe I am off Friday Sat and Sun next week!!! If so, I will be doing all kinds of fun stuff and exercising to boot.. I am getting more and more enthused about this work out thing, getting in shape thing.. I am also seriously considering riding my bicycle to work when the weather is nice.. I already have street tires on it and I have lights too..

So, do you remember me?

Yep,,,, When your not having success in the goal your attempting,,, you don't want to blog about it.

I have yet to hit the gym. Today, may be the day..
I have walked my dogs, walked my daughters dogs to help them out, and started walking around more at work.

The eating is up and down. I need to start taking picture of what I eat again so you and I can see what I eat...

It has been a few days because well, the truth is not so grim...

I have spent the last week working, and helping out my Daughter, son-in-law and grandson by walking their dogs... So, I have not just been sitting around...

I am going to start looking through the blogs for other weight loss blogs to help inspire myself..

Thanks for keeping with me!

I have not gone away...

I am here. Exhausted. I went to a motivation seminar today. It was OK. Some of it was great, some blah.. I am still not in major weight loss mode... Life goes on.... I am tired.. Just wanted to check in..

More later..

Professional me....

Here I am at 6:52 AM on a Thursday. I have a meeting at 8AM. Whatever is going on in my personal life at the time, I have to be on, looking good, in the right space at my job. My job is not a place where my personal feelings take precedence over my "work mode"...

My beard is trimmed, my clothes neat and clean I am awake and ready to rock.....

We have a meeting this morning for managers. I will be at work on and off from 8AM to about 9PM today... This is rare at my job but it does happen once in a while... Sometimes I feel work is the refuge, sometimes Friday does not come soon enough... Today begins a 7 days stretch.. Do to this meeting, schedules where changed and here we are....

What does this have to do with weight loss? Um, everything!

Up early for work, but not at the gym. I will not beat myself up again. I do what I can, I can what I do, I am who I am, if you don't like it ......

No seriously, the only bummer about getting up this early for work is that I do not have a car. I have a really nice Yamaha 11,000 but it has not roof, no doors, nothing enclosed so when I do go to work, my hair gets messed up, I have to dress up in this safety suit and it is just a general hassle.

But that was my choice when I bought it. I should have purchased a car.. Oh well...

So now I get ready to go. I will eat something as the last time we had a meeting they brought in doughnuts for us.....


On ward and up ward!!!

Sleep does wonders...

So, I did sleep after my last blog... I slept and slept and slept..

Then I went up on the roof (pics to follow) and took down some lights that where now out of season.. (last of them). Then I did some work in back, walked the dogs, did this and that and feel better for it...

Yeah me....

Home, home in the john...

Little Jacob is home.. My wife is over there helping clean, etc...

So, I am home today. Day two of my two days off. I have had stomach issues for about a week now.. It does not help that I have eaten a lot of crummy food... I am tired. I am tired a lot lately.

I still wake up with a back ache and still have not exercised. It is somewhat sunny for the first day in also about a week and I am debating weather to sleep more or just go outside... I have cleaned up the dog poop from out back so that is one thing done...

I am on the crapper a lot. When I eat now it is because I am really hungry. I eat but then off I go to johnsville. I am so defeated right now and I don't want to go anywhere else. It's like I just give up! Why bother? It is such an uphill climb with trying to work out while having stomach upsets and waking up with back hurting... I just want to sleep, sleep, sleep...

SO, maybe I will.. But I am hungry again.....

Spiral.. That is what this is... A spiral...

So as my tummy says owe and my eyes say close... my back says ache and my mouth says eat...

Ya know I don't edit this stuff right?

OK, I will try to take care of myself today.....
"Don't try young skywalker.. Do...."

Snorrrrrrrrr

The baby, the Grand pa and the food

So, my Grandson is still in the hospital due to Jaundice. This is normal and he should be home soon. My daughter is here now and we are all a part of the progress in one way or another.

I am doing fine. I was pretty depressed last night and I am not sure why really except that with the baby and work and just stuff I got a little overwhelmed.

We went shopping for food this morning and I have yogurt, bread, some cheese and other healthy type snacks for today...

I have yet to go to the gym... But I am not going to beat myself up for it...