back to basics - 7-10-09 updated

Back to basics....

I have to look through the logs to see when I started and when I last made an entry.. I need to do this again as I have completely stopped working out. I don't know why I did, I mean you could say lots of things stopped me, the moving from CA to Albuquerque or my new job at the same company or the missing the family or, or, or.. Bottom line is I am back to not working on my body and I need to be back there....

Strangely enough my knee does not hurt me anymore. I have also had problems with my foot in the past but some insoles from the Dr took care of that.. I have been struggling to just do a sit up or two, or a push up or two. Amazing! There is no 24 hour fitness out here which really sucks as I have a life time membership with them.... I do not want to spend anymore money on clubs that I go to some days, not others.

So, here I am. As I said, I will look through the logs and see what I see and try to pick this up again....Your support, not nagging me, is appreciated...

I am still in Weight Watchers although this week has been more like, so what... I will be out of town for three days then back... I will have my dogs soon so I will have to exercise them, hence, exercise me. They need a lot of attention so it will be a good thing to concentrate on them...

Wish me luck people!

Nata Nata Nata

No working out for me. Not yesterday, not today.. I am soooo tired....

Little or nothing to say.....

Challenges

Weight Watchers continues to be a challenge. I have a good day, then bad, good then bad. I was OK most of the day but came home and was starving....

I am doing OK now and I eat plan type stuff, just a lot of plan type stuff...

So, now I am satisfied as can be I guess...

Day at a time...

Where does the time go?

It is Thursday night and I did work out on Tuesday.. I sound like that hamburger guy...

I have lost 3 pounds with WW.. Weighed in today... the night is ending and I have a big day tomorrow so it is beddy by time...

Oh my achen back

It is 5:30 am and I woke up with a really bad back ache. I knew I would probably be hurting today as I ran with my daughters dog yesterday. He had been stuck in the house and so I thought I would get him some exercise (and myself too) so I ran with him in a park. RAN, not jogged, ran. It was fun at the time but I had not worked out in a week and I knew when I did it I would probably pay for it....


It is worth it..... But still, freaken hurts...

Self Management or- On being a Grownup

It is early. Very early. It is 5:18AM. Below is a picture of outside...


I woke up with a back ache again. I am up as it is my day off and I can nap later today if I need to. I have a team meeting for my team this morning at 9AM so I have to order food for them at around 7:30 or so to get it in time for the meeting.

One of my many roles is manager. I am also grandfather, husband, brother, uncle, grownup. I go up and down a lot with my confidence in my self in these roles.

Grownup is the biggie for me.

As a grownup I am responsible for my own self management. For example; today is my day off. I really need to pick up the working out again. I really have to prepare for this meeting. At home, we are meeting with a bankruptcy attorney in two days and I need to make sure everything is ready. I have to prepare food and figure out what and how I am going to eat today to stay on the Weight Watchers program I have done successfully for 5 days now. I think I may have lost 5 pounds.

At work I am struggling with how to be a better manager and team player. Am I doing enough for my other team members? Should I ask them? How should I ask them? What am I missing? Am I doing enough for my store?

At home I wonder if I am paying enough attention to my wife? Am I budgeting our money correctly? How can I better do that? How can I plan a successful vacation and pay for it? Am I doing enough for our future? How do I prioritize things? Are my dogs getting enough attention and walking time? How do I arrange and plan for the house repairs? Is the back lawn watered? Grass cut? Clothes for work clean? I may have a garage sale in the planning for the weekend, do I have enough time for it to get ready? When do we shop for more food for WW?

During all these questions are the self doubts. Why don't I work out everyday when I know it helps me? What makes me give it up? Why don't I do sit ups when I know it will help my back? Why don't I do exercises that will help me straighten my back? Why don't I plan any me time? When do I do that? Am I a failure? Am I too hard on myself? Too easy? Why can't I relax?

So many questions and they all relate to each other. I feel like there is an answer in there somewhere. And I feel if I could find it I would be the person I really want to be.

I honestly feel exercise is the start of that answer. If I can get myself to a place of peace with my body, then my mind follows. And starting with that I can do more concerning everything else. At least I think that is true. But I won't know for sure until I get there.

I feel good knowing I am on a program to help with my weight and that for 5 days so far I have been faithful to it.

It is now 5:40Am.... I feel better having wrote this.

Sometimes you punt

So, what does that mean? I don't know I just like it... I have not worked out in like over a week or so. I am on the WW plan and it is day three and doing pretty well.

I can go to da gym tomorrow as I don't have to be at work until 1PM... What excuses can I come up with to not go???

I know... Elephant flu... Or Sleepidus or I don't care idus....

OK, OK, maybe I will go.. Jezz, give me a break already!!