Saturday, February 28, 2009

Nothing says I am fat like a sweater....


Nothing says I am fat like a sweater! Now, I am not being down on myself, that is just my reality right now. Tonight I have this event I am going to. You need to dress up. I have pants that fit now as I went out and purchased some but none of my shirts fit well enough to close the

Collar.



So, I went to the mainstay... A work shirt that is white with a sweater on. Dressed but not in the fashion I wanted. I wanted to wear a white shirt or dark shirt with a nice tie but none of my shirts fit well enough to do that.

I need some good dress up clothes. I like to look really sharp when I go out and although I look good, I really wanted to close the top button and wear a tie tonight.. I should have planned ahead...

On the bright side, I have exercised these last few days. No, no gym, but I have walked both sets of dogs for extended periods and I have not sat still for long on my two days "off."

Tomorrow is Sunday and I believe I am off Friday Sat and Sun next week!!! If so, I will be doing all kinds of fun stuff and exercising to boot.. I am getting more and more enthused about this work out thing, getting in shape thing.. I am also seriously considering riding my bicycle to work when the weather is nice.. I already have street tires on it and I have lights too..

Friday, February 27, 2009

So, do you remember me?


Yep,,,, When your not having success in the goal your attempting,,, you don't want to blog about it.

I have yet to hit the gym. Today, may be the day..
I have walked my dogs, walked my daughters dogs to help them out, and started walking around more at work.

The eating is up and down. I need to start taking picture of what I eat again so you and I can see what I eat...

It has been a few days because well, the truth is not so grim...

I have spent the last week working, and helping out my Daughter, son-in-law and grandson by walking their dogs... So, I have not just been sitting around...

I am going to start looking through the blogs for other weight loss blogs to help inspire myself..

Thanks for keeping with me!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

I have not gone away...

I am here. Exhausted. I went to a motivation seminar today. It was OK. Some of it was great, some blah.. I am still not in major weight loss mode... Life goes on.... I am tired.. Just wanted to check in..

More later..

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Professional me....


Here I am at 6:52 AM on a Thursday. I have a meeting at 8AM. Whatever is going on in my personal life at the time, I have to be on, looking good, in the right space at my job. My job is not a place where my personal feelings take precedence over my "work mode"...

My beard is trimmed, my clothes neat and clean I am awake and ready to rock.....

We have a meeting this morning for managers. I will be at work on and off from 8AM to about 9PM today... This is rare at my job but it does happen once in a while... Sometimes I feel work is the refuge, sometimes Friday does not come soon enough... Today begins a 7 days stretch.. Do to this meeting, schedules where changed and here we are....

What does this have to do with weight loss? Um, everything!

Up early for work, but not at the gym. I will not beat myself up again. I do what I can, I can what I do, I am who I am, if you don't like it ......

No seriously, the only bummer about getting up this early for work is that I do not have a car. I have a really nice Yamaha 11,000 but it has not roof, no doors, nothing enclosed so when I do go to work, my hair gets messed up, I have to dress up in this safety suit and it is just a general hassle.

But that was my choice when I bought it. I should have purchased a car.. Oh well...

So now I get ready to go. I will eat something as the last time we had a meeting they brought in doughnuts for us.....


On ward and up ward!!!

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Sleep does wonders...

So, I did sleep after my last blog... I slept and slept and slept..

Then I went up on the roof (pics to follow) and took down some lights that where now out of season.. (last of them). Then I did some work in back, walked the dogs, did this and that and feel better for it...

Yeah me....

Home, home in the john...


Little Jacob is home.. My wife is over there helping clean, etc...

So, I am home today. Day two of my two days off. I have had stomach issues for about a week now.. It does not help that I have eaten a lot of crummy food... I am tired. I am tired a lot lately.

I still wake up with a back ache and still have not exercised. It is somewhat sunny for the first day in also about a week and I am debating weather to sleep more or just go outside... I have cleaned up the dog poop from out back so that is one thing done...

I am on the crapper a lot. When I eat now it is because I am really hungry. I eat but then off I go to johnsville. I am so defeated right now and I don't want to go anywhere else. It's like I just give up! Why bother? It is such an uphill climb with trying to work out while having stomach upsets and waking up with back hurting... I just want to sleep, sleep, sleep...

SO, maybe I will.. But I am hungry again.....

Spiral.. That is what this is... A spiral...

So as my tummy says owe and my eyes say close... my back says ache and my mouth says eat...

Ya know I don't edit this stuff right?

OK, I will try to take care of myself today.....
"Don't try young skywalker.. Do...."

Snorrrrrrrrr

Monday, February 16, 2009

The baby, the Grand pa and the food

So, my Grandson is still in the hospital due to Jaundice. This is normal and he should be home soon. My daughter is here now and we are all a part of the progress in one way or another.

I am doing fine. I was pretty depressed last night and I am not sure why really except that with the baby and work and just stuff I got a little overwhelmed.

We went shopping for food this morning and I have yogurt, bread, some cheese and other healthy type snacks for today...

I have yet to go to the gym... But I am not going to beat myself up for it...

Saturday, February 14, 2009

First full day of life for Jacob outside the womb


We are at the hospital for Jacobs first full day of life. He is the most beautiful baby I have ever seen. I know all Grandfathers say that but it is so true. The pictures don't lie. It makes me want to get in better shape because when I hold him my back hurts a tiny bit & I want to hold him for hours and hours.

I walked the dogs this morning for 30 minutes briskly. It felt really good to do that.

My knee was a touch annoying on the walk but I hope that goes away soon. I intend to do at least 30 minutes every day & start some kind of upper & lower back exercise to strenthen my back...

It has been a very good day for Grandpa Jay..

Friday, February 13, 2009

I am a Grand dad

Little Jacob is 9 pounds 9 ounces and 22 inches long....! I am a Granddad!!

That is my daughter Leaha... Now I know what it is to be blessed.....

1PM still waiting

I go back to the nurses station about once an hour...My wife & my son-in-laws mother (Pat) went back this time to check.. The little one should be here in about 30 minutes!!!! We wait, we wait,..Is it soup yet???

At the hospital

So. Here we are at Kaiser waiting while Leaha is doing what first time mothers do - waiting for Little Lacob to come out..I am amazingly wide awake for someone who has been up sonce 4:15 AM..I called work- They were cool as always...

So now, at 11:02AM We wait......
Fill you in as it happens!! I will ad any pics later as they happen..

Could it be a new baby!!!

And now
me! More dressed and ready than ever at 4:50 AM!



OK, so I have not said a word except in my profile that my daughter has a baby on the way..

We got a call at 4:19AM on this Feb 13th 2009 that her water broke... SOOOO- Is it true?? Could it be????

IS A BABY ON THE WAY???

We got a call once before about two weeks ago and that was a false alarm so we are cautious today but very well may be.. Not sure but maybe....

!!!I MIGHT BE A GRANDPA TODAY!!!!

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Sleepy time

So, the day is done. I did nothing in the way of exercise today but I am not going to beat myself up for it. No shopping either but I do have food in the fridge and I will make something for me tomorrow so I am set for the day.

Nothing much to report, did not "pig out" today and I am noticing I am tired a lot lately. Today I slept a lot but still at 9PM I am tired...

Blah, blah, blah.. I am board with myself tonight so I won't go on and on....

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Thoughts to live by...

I feel good about today. I did not pig out like a crazy fat dude. I had some decent food, went for a long walk with my dogs and then a short walk with my daughters dogs.. (It started to rain.)

As I say in the video.... What my brother (Anonymous) and others have said.. If it hurts, work it out and it won't hurt as much.. My knee felt better on the walk.. I am hoping my back starts to get better...

This blog helps me. I like to showcase myself. I like to do it because, yes, I think I am a little bit arrogant and the truth is, I am getting to see some parts of myself I don't like. The excuses, the obsessive overeating, but mostly, The big things..

You know, a lot of the time I overeat because I do not prepare myself for the day. I don't make food, make conscience choices of what food I want to eat, will eat. I don't think about it until I am hungry. I don't plan it out.

It is funny, it is crazy really. I have never taken the time to notice that I don't really seem to care if I have food until I am hungry. Right now I am snacking on "Lunchables" which are I am sure not really good for me but a damn site better then a full on roast beef sandwich or a full fast food meal..

And now that I am "AWARE" and I put that into caps not to be sarcastic but to note that I am aware now. Next time I am hungry late at night, I am going to have some choices that I have prepared a head of time. The lunchables where something I purchased just for times like this. Now I will take some more time and get some even healthier food. I know this sounds high School, or even earlier but sometimes it just takes what it takes to come to that realization.

I did not go to the gym today. I am OK with that as I was out with the dogs on a good paced walk for about an hour and it was awesome. I did a small walk with the other dogs in my life and cleaned around the house, moved some furniture, was somewhat active and spent some quality time with my daughter, my wife and my some of my favorite pets....

It was a good day...

Here are some videos and pics from the day.......



















Monday, February 9, 2009

Today's day...

So, I received one comment from a friend and some comments from other people at work.. I have since gained 9 pounds.. Since November that is..

I am tired, worn out and frustrated. I did not call the doctor today, I will on my day off, Wednesday.

So some friends at work suggested I do like 1000 sit ups a day.. 100 at a time for 10 times during the day..

Go to the GYM, not the CLUB.. I have been calling it the club and apparently that means going out dancing or something....

Walk on the treadmill, just walk... Walk the dogs faster.. (You saw how that went)

It was nice to talk about it.. After I found out I had gained 9 pounds I felt the need to talk and I was glad some people at work where able to listen..

So, tomorrow is a new day.. I am sleepy and ready for bed with hopes of a new better tomorrow..

A comment from a friend...

This is a comment from a friend of mine...

"I know it is something you have been fighting with for a while and I'm sure you'll get to your goal. I remember a lot of the smaller weight loss milestones you've told me about over the last few years, so I know you can do it. Don't let the number on the scales or the plateaus you run into discourage you think of the small victories you've had with this battle and keep stringing them together. You are a strong willed individual Jay keep it up."

I have just fixed it so you don't have to join to comment now.. Yeah!!!

It's 4:45 AM- my back needed to go for a walk

I woke up in pain again. Thank God I don't have to work until noon today. I wonder if it is my bed. I mean, why else would it not hurt this intensely until like halfway through the night? I am calling a doctor this morning....

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Where has the day gone?

It is now Sunday night about 9PM. The day is gone.. The good of the day- I walked my daughters dogs for her as she is pregnant and she and hubby are needing some help so we helped! I also helped clean the windows and most importantly, visit with my Son-in-law and my daughter.....

The bad- food choices, some good, some bad..

Breakfast, Some kind of prime rib steak and eggs.. Not a bad choice really as it was filling but not too much food. I will add the pic soon.

Lunch.. very good! Salad made by my daughter! Very good, very tasty, filled me up for a some time... Pic soon..

Dinner... No pic... Bad choice.. Pizza.. 4 pieces and some crazy bread (2 pieces). Actually not as bad as last time.. I would not have stopped until the food was all gone...

I slept a lot today too and I am still tired... I want to be in bed by 10 and I will make it..

Tomorrow is another day and I want to start going to the club. Will I? Not sure...

My first REAL hurdle

As you know from yesterdays video blog, I walked the dogs and walked briskly for about 10 to 15 minutes then spent about a total of 40 minutes with them just doing the rest of the walk. After that I did stuff around the garage and then went to work, etc. Pretty normal day. Went to bed around 11ish and woke up just now, 5:50 AM with an almost cramping back pain in my lower back.

Son of a B, this is the first time in my memory that I am feeling my age. I have never had and incident where I have done some exercise that was not close to strenuous and woken up the next day with a killer back ache or pain of any kind. I am VERY concerned.

Tomorrow is Monday and tomorrow I call the doctor and consider some PT (Physical Therapy). I mention the PT as I used to be in workers comp as a manager and although I am certain this is not a work injury nor will it be claimed as such, my experience in that industry has taught me that the next step is a doctor, not a Chiro and some PT. Like I said a few days ago, the Chiropractor was great, but my back is not getting better and today is worse. I will see him tomorrow but I am pretty sure he won't be touching my back. ( I am afraid, honestly, that wrenching it like they do will really hurt me.)

What really bothers me is that there was no sign whatsoever of this pain coming on the whole day. Like I said on my walk (see video) I had a little pain in my knee and foot but nothing about my back... My right knee is hurting now and my back pain is lessening some now in the few minutes I have been up and sitting here writing.

I have not taken anything for the back but I will in a few. I wanted to sit down and write this while I felt it as I am dedicated to this blog and my progress is now connected to it.

I am off to take some meds now to help me with the pain... We are supposed to go over to my Daughter and Son-in-laws house to help with moving stuff and I really want to be there for them today...

Freaking back, freaking age, freaking fat......

Why is getting in shape so much freaking harder then getting out of shape? Not to be overly dramatic but I hope I have not screwed myself up for good buy letting myself go for this long...

Well... I wanted motivation, I know have it...


PAIN SUCKS

Saturday, February 7, 2009

EX ercise with video

So, here I am walking with the dogs... This blog thing is awesome... I can't believe how winded I sound! But I am glad I was out there!!! I did do it!


This is almost to the end of the walk... Man, I don't look all that healthy.... But I guess it is a mater of perspective...



So, there you have it.. Thanks for coming on my walk with me this morning... I will post my days food in another blog but I wanted to just kind of go out with the dogs and show you rather than tell you. It also helps me to see what kind of shape I am really in. I have been fooling myself that I am not in that bad of shape.. I am in really poor shape right now and this blog helps me see that.

So, hopefully, you and me dear reader will start to exercise more together.. I want to take you to 24 hour fitness with me and start off together so we can see- I can see, my progress.

It will be fun to see me at the start.. Like TODAY and then a few weeks from now.. God I hope I keep going with this..

Not many comments so far, but the ones I have are very valuable to me so that you!

I spoke with my brother who was encouraging and people at work are too! Go Jay go!!! Slow but steady for today anyway...

Morning - 6AM also known as Sat or my Friday

So, I woke up at 6AM with a back ache. This is a morning ritual I have each day. Waking up(thank God)and the back ache(dammit to hell!) I started having this back ache about two months ago and finally went to a chiropractor who someone assured me was "Da Bomb." Some other person told me that Chiropractors are great until you stop going to them, then your screwed up again. Well, I am not in as much pain as I was before I started going.

I used to wake up at 4AM with a really bad back ache and was advised by friends and associates to -Buy a new bed - put a board under the bed - lose some of "The fatness" - exercise, etc.

Well, the back is somewhat better but not all the way... I see the chiro one more time on Monday and I think that will be the last... Not because he has not helped, he actually has, but because I am still in pain and it has leveled out to where I suspect now I do have to actually do one of the two things suggested:
1. Lose "Da Fatness" and - oh my God, here it comes......

.............EXERCISE...........

I even hate the word... EXERCISE...

Isn’t that what they do to demons????

They give them an "exorcism." It has the word exercise in it so it can't be good... Or just Ex-- Like an Ex-wife or Ex-lover.. Of course it could also be like Ex-fatness... So in that case, maybe it is not so bad...

It is 6:15AM, I am meeting someone at 9AM to buy a really cheap but really fun x-box!! I work at 1PM so really, I have no excuse to not get some of "DA EX" and walk my dogs doing it.. Sounds good! Good for me, good for my doggies (who are now sleeping inside the warm, quite house-shhhhhh.)

And now...

What I look like at 6AM.... ????WOULD YOU SLEEP WITH THIS MAN????? UGGGG!!!
(I think someone needs a haircut)

Now imagine this fine looking man sitting here blogging and passing gas... (That is one of the many benefits people don't mention of eating too much food and not getting enough or any exercise...)

....Well....

....Smell you later....
(I think someone needs a shower... baaaaadly)

Friday, February 6, 2009

Part 2 of my study

Sorry, for some reason it was putting a blue line under everything... So again, that was lunch/dinner... I keep saying that because I had some chicken when I got home.. (No pics of that)

I spoke with a guy at work who used to be 60 pounds heavier and he is now in really good shape. Not muscle bound just trim and fit. He runs a lot and works out a lot. But he let me know that he used to be 60 pounds more because he wanted to encourage me. He talked about getting the lungs working about 20 to 30 minutes two or three times a week. A brisk walk with the dogs, jog at the gym, just things like that and eating will not be such a problem. He said I need to do this until it becomes a life change.

Then he started going into all kinds of exercise and I lost interest and started to wish I could press the stop button or just walk away with out offending him... "I do push ups, sit ups like this and find some place to do this like this... on and on and on..." I mean no offense but I got the point and all the exercises kind of scared me off. I need to start slowly and work my way up to not as slowly...

I used to have something called Sleep Apnea... I may not be spelling that right but it is basically sleep deprivation. Now I use a machine called a C-Pap and I sleep like a baby. Well I have another friend that said once you are getting the rest your body needs, if you exercise the weight will just fall off... "Just fall off" now that sounds like something I like hearing!!

So, I have to, HAVE TO get out and get it on baby!!!

I like blogging because I am accountable to you. More importantly, I am seeing what kind of extreme junk I am eating! Oh my freakin God!!! I am eating worse than my dogs!! (they eat pretty good so that is not saying much.)

I am eating worse than worse.. I am probably spending more money this way too.. Not probably, definitely....

So, now what? Sunday- WE SHOP... We will buy food for the week and your gana see me eat right - with pics- and exercise... If I don't, you will see that too...

Thanks for being here with me and I know even if you don't comment, if you look at my page, you are helping me.... THANK YOU!!!!

My Scientific Study

So the day started out with this-







And this









Yummy Chicken and Cheese with Iced tea.. That is all I had.. Ya see I looked in the fridge and saw this-V








And then I looked in the Freezer and saw this:


I put the potato's in there for the pic... From that I choose chicken with cheese for my first food... I have oatmeal but that would have been too healthy..


It was good though and I was full until dinner/lunch at 4PM. I struggled to get into pants to go to work. My wife and I purchased me some pants that were big enough but I remembered this morning were way too long so I had to squeeze into some shorts.. Nice belly shot ya think?So, that is all me.. Not way heavy but too heavy for the pants.. I was uncomfortable all day and they are about the only ones left that fit....

So it was off to work and the day was pretty good.. Then lunch/dinner at 4PM came and now for the reason I called this "My Scientific Study" I told you yesterday that I ate Nachos for lunch and would show you a picture of that the next time I did it.. Well, with that in mind I did it..
I am glad I did as I really need you to see what it is I am eating which I think will explain to you and show me why I am as heavy as I am...
Here is the pics.... Yes, they are real and Yes I did eat all of that... My Gd it is a wonder I have not had a heart attack... The first shot is of the plate, the cup of iced tea and a little heart shaped chocolate that they gave me for dessert...

End of the day about midnight


So, lunch was a tuna fish sandwich from 7/11. Dinner was a large order of nachos with sour cream and guacamole with lots of chips.. Followed by sleepiness and self loathing...

But it was really good food..

Came home, had another tuna fish sandwich and watched the X-files movie..

I wish I had taken a picture of the nachos... I will next time..

I am sore, my back pretty much. Tired too. Tomorrow is another day.. What is there too say? Food is my master, exercise my kryptonite. I don't get sore from sitting around but I do get sore when I get up...

Seriously, blogging this stuff is kind of helping!! Now if I could only shop for the food and start the exercise.. You could say walking the dogs yesterday was exercise. Maybe that is why I am sore.. So, if I walk them again tomorrow that is more exercise... I love walking them as they are good walkers... (Must be very tired as that sounds sooooo stupid....) Good night...! (PS- that little red thing in the bottom of the tuna bag is a wrapper from a piece of chocolate... Just had one ya know..

Thursday, February 5, 2009

A new day and new challenges

Below you can see my two dogs helping me with breakfast. They will sit in the kitchen and watch hoping for some small amount of food to drop and then scoop it up...

I know, I should probably make them go away, but look at them! They are just too cute..




















Now lets look at what I am eating this morning for my first meal of the day....

Yummy!!!! It is actually 4 eggs, a little bit of

vegetables and some cheese topped with salad dressing and a glass of iced tea....That's it today... It is pretty much all I had in the fridge and I pretty much made it because my wife sent me a text from work - (she goes in early!) - encouraging me to make breakfast rather then walk down to 7/11 and get something.Honestly, I think I would have been better off. It was good but not great and I will probably be hungry in about an hour...







So, that brings up the next issue... My wife goes to work at like 4:55AM and she has the car, I have a motorcycle... Costco and Walmart are up the street and I really can't shop for food nor can she as she is tired when getting home.. I mean she can, but we like to shop together and with out conflicting schedules it is hard for one of us to go and get everything... I know that sounds like a lame excuse but it is what it is...


So each day, like today, I look in the refrigerator and see nothing there and then go to 7/11 or to a restaurant near by my job after hitting the candy machine and get lunch... It is usually too much food, I feel bloated and cranky but I have eaten.


When we do shop, then it is better. I have food made and I can actually make it through the day. I have not been able to do that for a few weeks.. Now I do have soup I can take, but it is not enough.


So, what will I do today? Not sure. I might get on the bike and pick up something from the W mart or just get some snacks from 7/11 and then go out for lunch... I need to talk to Jenifer and see how we can get together and get some shopping done. Once we have some food in the fridge it is easier...


Next issue:


Today's exercise!


Did I mention I belong to 24 hour fitness? Did I mention it is right down the street? I have a lifetime membership and I last went about 4 or 5 months ago...... It is raining right now so I have no intention of walking over there and I am not getting suited up to get on the bike to go one block and get all un-suited. So, this morning.. Probably no exercise... My co-worker who is in great shape suggested I do one of those on demand work out programs.. Maybe I will look at that but truthfully- my knee hurts a little and my back is sore...


So now you see the problem. Honestly, feedback and comments would be appreciated as I see it but I don't. I know I sound winy but to me these are valid reasons.


OK, I am now boring myself so I will end and try to let you know how the day when tonight....







Wednesday, February 4, 2009

What happens when

So, what happens from the point of - "I am not going to overeat. I am going to watch my food and make sure I am careful" Fast forward to later that nigh and I am eating dinner at a restaurant, just finished the main course, Steak, Potato with all the fixins and I mean ALL the fixins and then the server says; "We have some of the best cheese cake in the world, light and fluffy and oh so tasty with whipped cream on top! Want some?" And I say.... "I would love some!"

Are there like some instincts that override the common sense that would tell you to eat moderately? Is it just the f#@k it mentality that kicks in and says, "You only live once cowhand!"

I have no clue what happens. I just know that minutes after eating I got up and carried my fat self to the men’s room and suddenly felt like I was filled with gas, blown up like a balloon I snapped out of the stupor and realized I just ate more than two peoples fair share. I felt really stuffed for about two hours. I also beat myself up for doing it. Hell, if I am gana do it the least I can do is just enjoy it.

But how can you enjoy feeling like Sh%t after stuffing your face? Sure moderation is one thing, but this was not moderation. It also cost us almost $100 dollars.... Yep, smooth move Michelin man...

Don't get me wrong. I don't hate myself. I am just flabbergasted that I would do, could do that after all I have written today about how I want to lose the weight...

I did walk the dogs.. Good for me. So, there you have it. The end of my first day in blogger land.

Tomorrow is another day and another chance to make good on my promise to myself to make it happen. Another chance to exercise, eat better if not "right" and let you know how it goes...

Good night my friends....

Losing the weight is not a game I am winning


My name is Jay. I am 45, 5 foot 11 and 260 pounds.... I have tried many diets... Some have worked for a while.. Jenny worked for over a year.. Some have worked for a month.. I did this 6 week thing that worked for me for about 5 weeks...

It is not the diets. I am not blaming. I do remember one "Diet Center" where the lady said... "When I get hungry I just think of the starving children in Ethiopia and I can starve myself a little.. I like to starve myself like that because it is kind of fun..." Did I mention her eyes where kind of glassy when she said that.. Not drugs,,, just that cult kind of look when you are no longer there...

Having written the above... I hope your not expecting me to now talk about how I have "FOUND IT!" How I one day stumbled upon the cure and I am now going to share it with you for only $49.95 for your first installment. "But wait there's more!"

No, sorry, not going there... This is a blog for real people with real struggles... Mainly me and my wife Jenifer. We have tried for the ten years married together to make it happen. Lose the weight... Has not happened yet. But wait there's more!!


I am hoping with this blog to chronicle my days, share my experience, my fears, hopes successes and yes; the invariable losses and I am not talking weight losses I am talking falling off the wagon losses I will experience.. We all do so lets not say: "From this day forward I will not falter! I will not waiver and you and I dear reader will do it together! For only $49.95!!!!"

Lets just say... Weight, weight don't tell me...

I made that choice because I like the show on PBS which has nothing to do with weight loss but is fun and witty. The thing is, I don't really want to know what my weight is. I don't want to know that I am not losing it. I just want the weight to go away...

So maybe, just maybe - together.. The three of us.. My wife Jenifer Leilani, myself Jay, and you can somehow, some way, get down to the nitty gritty and get in better shape, feel better, look better- FEEL BETTER... I don't need to look like some movie star, hell I don't even need t be rail thin, just enough so when I tie my shoes I don't have to breath out and hope I don't strain my back.....

I promise I will TRY to blog each and every day with my progress and I will do my best to put some thought into it.. Jenifer will most likely blog too. I want to make my blogs more than.. "Did not work out today, overate..."

Today, by the way, I had Spaghetti "O's" and then claim chowder for breakfast... I did walk the dogs which I will have pictures of soon... I took them on about and hour walk.. Leisurely, not like jog walk... It was nice, fun and I listened to my I-Pod on most of it.. I feel good right now.. Have my ice tea next to me and just had a cookie... I will try to go make a healthy lunch... Yeah right...

Wish us luck......