A day of rest

I don't want to go to the gym today. I might latter tonight but I am not doing the spinner class today. I woke up with a sore knee and a sore back.

This is day two of my two days off. I have split days coming so I decided I wanted a day of rest. I wanted a day where I could: 1) see my grandson.
2) mess around the house and play with my dogs.
3) Maybe actually hit my 360 for like 30 minutes!

I bought that thing a few months ago and have used it maybe twice....

Thing is, I like to read in bed before I go to sleep. Right now the book of choice is "The Wizards First Rule." It is a book in the style of Tolken with people on a quest etc.. I am really enjoying it and one of the things I love about the book is that it is BIG. Not is size, in width. I love books that are fun to read that go on forever!!!!! It has a good story to it....

So it is 9AM, I have to work tomorrow and as I have said, I like my job so there is no problem there. But today is my off day and off I go! I am sure I will be back with more before the day is done....

Side note: So Jay; Why no pictures of your food?
Well, the thing is, if I take pictures of my food, I have to think about what I am going to eat. If I have to think about what I am going to eat, I might not eat it. My exercise has been pretty steady but my food has not improved a whole lot. But I could not tell you that for sure as I have not taken pictures of it...

SOOOOO - OK, starting today... with lunch, I will start including my daily food in my blog again...

Bummer...

Dog park- Check- Vist friends- Check- then the GYM

So we are going to visit some neighbors then go to the gym. That is the plan.. We went to the dog park today and the doggies loved it!!!

We have some business with our awesome neighbors on the left.. Not to be confused with our awesome neighbors on the right... Then..

GYM

That is the plan, I am sticking to it.. I feel pretty good lately. I am still in the fat zone physically but mentally and emotionally I feel better. I am much more alert and alive and I do feel better

Back from the gym... 30 minutes at 80RPM's or better on the bike....

Tomorrow morning.... Spin class.. (If I can get there by 9AM)

......This will be a challenge........

Choices

Well, last night I wanted to work out but I did not. I had an event and I went, got home early enough but just did not feel it....

Today, I was to go to a breakfast but worked out for a little instead. It felt good to get some sweat going. It is almost time to go to work as I work a later shift today. I am tired. I need some rest.

My weekend starts tomorrow and I am stoked... I am soooo ready for just some ME time...

I don't feel bad about last night because I took care of me and read some of a book I am enjoying...

I feel good. Not great, not crappy, but good. And good is better than crappy. Exercise is a constant in my life now. Some, a little, a lot, it is there, on my mind each and every day and I am being good to me, I just need to get the food thing to a place where I feel good about that too...

Gymfest update

Well, not a great day at the gym but a good day none the less. I did my bicycle time and some rowing. Jen Lei had some probs with her gym equipment so overall,,,, this is a day I can say "I went!"

It was a 5 on a scale of 1 to 10 maybe a 6. Tomorrow I will do elliptical. I seem to get the best workout with that... I am also going to change my tunes a little.. Some of the songs are blah blah...


I don't think I have lost any major weight and I don't think many people or rather more than one is reading this but I did do this for me to see what I am doing on a day to day business and help me though the hard times...

I am happy with myself for getting back to the gym after my cold. I did not quit! That is BIG!

So, each day is a challenge, a good challenge, but a challenge none the less...

I am also going to start putting pictures of my food up again so I can see what I am eating and so can you! Aren't you excited??

Back from the Gym

So as you know, I am disgusted with my state of fatness. I went to the gym with my wife again today. I did the bicycle for 30 minutes keeping the RPM's at 80 or better for the whole 30 minutes.

It was a good workout, not a great one. I don't want to kick my own butt her but it was not unbelievably great, just good.

But I also have to remember that I told myself not to beat myself up if I went to the gym and did anything. And honestly, it was better than just anything...

So, I do feel better being home again. I did something and it was a challenge. It also helped my knee. I can tell it helped my knee.

So now I am considering Slim Fast.... Whatever; I am sick of the struggle to get the fat off. I am not quitting the struggle I am just sick of seeing my belly full of jelly that looks like it is all swelly...

And the doctor says....

So, I went to the doctor with my wife today. Looks like my knee is going to be fine with some good old fashioned exercise. I need to do some intense bicycling and that should do it... Something about the muscles around my knee cap or something..


The bad news is... I am tired of being fat. TIRED.... I purchased a new shirt today from Wall mart- Extra freakin large.... Could not button the top...

I am thinking of doing the slim fast just to get this freaking weight off. I hate HATE being fat...
And I am not pleasantly plump, a little pudgy, nicely round.. I am freaking FAT....

???HOW DID THIS HAPPEN???

I woke up one day and BANG there it is!!! I have some serious blubber. None of my clothes fit right. My shirt tops won't close. I am hating it,,,,,, hating it....

So, there you have it...

Thoughts for the day

It is bright and early. 7AM. I woke up from a strange dream which I don't need to talk about. My back hurt, but not my knee... The back hurt some, not a whole lot which is a good thing.

Yesterday, due to my schedule I was not able to go to the gym but I did take the dogs for extended walks and with my daughters dogs I did jog first with them for a little bit then a longer walk. I am OK with that.

Right now I am itching to hit the gym. I can't freakin believe it! I want to go to the gym. We will today. I don't won't to wake her, but the truth is, I may.... I need to tension release. Feels good to feel that way....

I put together a music thing for my workout so I can listen to stuff while I move....

That is all for now for my public blog...

BACK with a Vengeance BABY!!

I just got back from the gym.... Great sweaty work out tonight.. First one in a week... Loved it...

My wife said something about the gym and off we went.... Feels good to be back!!!

So now I am back home and I am putting together a work out library so I have tunes to work to...

I needed this. I was feeling like being sick killed it for me again.... Now, right this moment, everything I do feels better because I know I took care of myself tonight and I did not do it alone... Jen Looooooo was there right!!!!!!

So in closing... I will end this blog tonight listening to AC/DC and feeling like a million dollars...

Slowley but shurly

So we went to the gym tonight for a ten minute session. You can blame my wife for that. She is the one who said: "Let's go!" That is a good thing!

She did not only 10 minutes but did 25 walking the dogs. Good for her!

So we went because Jenifer Leilani asked us to go... She said: "Do you want to go?" I said no, but lets go anyway...

So we went for a ten minute walk on the treadmill. Works for me as I have been sick and I am just glad I went in... Paid my yearly dues too... $49 bucks a year...! I am a lifetime member of 24 hour fit... What is really nice about that is that I have no excuse to not go. Money will never stand in the way. That is a big deal too considering all the times I have gone, not gone and decided to go again. Even during the year + I did not go I still paid that fee.. I would have to be crazy not to.....

So, each day is a test. Each day is an inch forward or an inch back. Today was an in forward.

It was a good day

So, I did not go to the gym. I DID walk my dogs for an extended walk and I DID walk Leaha and Peter's dogs for an extended walk. So, I did exercise today and I feel good about it.


The cold is almost completely gone and I love it... Work tomorrow and then work out!

Set backs....

Today is day 5 of sickie Jay. I have not been to a gym or worked on exercise in any way in 4 days. Today is day 5.

That is me. Just awake at 9:30 am. It is 9:46 as we speak. I woke up really, really depressed. I mean, call the therapist I think this is it depressed. As you can see, that is my attempt at looking somewhere in between "Happy!" insane and blank.

I am not that depressed right now. I do know that when I do not work out I get restless and anxious. I realized that last night and also last time I was at work which was Tuesday night.

I like this guy Cesar Milan who is also known as "The Dog Whisperer." He says you need to walk your dogs every day or they get restless and can become aggressive, board, etc. Well, I think that applies to humans too.

I think that after so long of not working out and having this spiral of eating junk and being up and down with depression that my week + of getting to a gym and walking my dogs and my daughters dogs and then not because of sickness has shown me the difference in my life with and with out exercise.

I believe in one of my blogs I mentioned exercise as evil like exorcism or something like that.

I know believe that it is an exorcism but an exorcism of all that is not healthy and all the tension and waste that is built up in my body during the day. I need to exercise to feel better about my self, my life and my choices and I need to exercise to have the energy and wit to make changes when I am not happy with any of my current choices.

If I don't exercise I get depressed, anxious and I quell that by overeating, obsessing, making poor choices and doubting myself and my decisions.

When I do exercise I am strong. I feel good, I feel great, I am full of energy, I make good decisions, I make plans for change for myself and the people I manage. When I exercise I follow through on those plans and changes as I am up much more.

When I get depressed I don't follow through on my plans.

Exercise motivates me. The more I do it, the more motivated I am to do it.

Today I feel better. I mean, my cold is still hanging on but I don't feel like I have a cold except for the cough and the sniffles. Today I need to hit the gym. Not kill myself, not kick my ass, but I do need to hit the gym. I miss my fix.

One of the worst things about this cold is each day is one day that I could have been exercising and one day more that I have not been so I am 5 days behind schedule......

I NEED TO FIX THAT TODAY!

.....Wish me luck bitches.......

Cold Cold Cold

So, whenever I work out and get into a grove it seems something stops me. Right now I have a cold that is keeping me down. My nose is stuffy, and that is my with my new best friend... TP.. Yep, it taint pretty but it helps me with my new work out... Blowing my nose...

As you can see I have moved my work station and I like where it is now...

So back to my cold.. My chest hurts from the occasional cough... I used that cold and cough medicine that has the little guys running around on TV - Musinex which is doing nothing for me but causing me grief.

SO, here I sit, feeling like S#%T and waiting for the cold to leave. I can only hope and pray I still go back to the gym when I feel better....

Where I am and where I have been

So, I got a call from my brother yesterday who was raving about my blog. He said I should read what I wrote at the begging and what I am writing today.

Update: I have been sick the last few days. I missed working out yesterday due to a cold and a close call with my wife... (she is fine)

The day before I did an X-BIKE class with my friend from work and made it all the way through doing diffent levels during the class.

It was a weird class.... They turn down the lights and everything is like black light.. My white towel glowed.. Honestly that part was annoying and I had to take the towel off the front of the stationary bike and put it on my neck. If I did that class again I would wear black and bring a black towel...

I feel great! Even though I have a cold, I feel great. My knee is doing better. My back is doing better..

I have too, I will, hit the gym again today... I need to keep doing this. I need to keep feeling this...

Jenifer Leilani and I really do go to the gym now!

Here are the pics to prove it.

We are truly going every day. I went twice today.. Once for my 30 minute cardio workout and then after dinner with Jenifer Leilani so she could work it. I just walked for the time we where there...

Sometimes I eat when I am not hungry

At work the other day and last night I noticed that I eat even though I was not hungry. I had cookies last night with milk and I was not even hungry I just needed to eat something.

At work the other night I did the same thing.. It is hard to understand what goes on in my head when this happens. I will try to blog it but from what I can remember I just need to have something to munch on and I don't carry celery. I supposed I could start carrying celery and I do now have some cheese and crackers that we bought tonight.

I just get the need to eat I guess because I am stressed.

A walk with with the dogs on a trail near home

This is a trail we walked on with the dogs who where camera shy.... I just thought I would include some pics that I really like.....

Exercise can be fun!

My day as Jay

Today I went to the gym. Gym fest continues. I told the trainer that we could not afford him right now but when tax returns came we would reconsider. Nice guy, was an actor in a few movies that he said never got released... He was not kidding, I looked up one of them and it was cool to see a clip or two with him in it..

As for me.. I did treadmill for 30 minutes today. Good pace, 1.7 miles. I am going to do the rowing machine tomorrow. I want to keep switching up the machines so I am not stuck in any one place and I don't get board.

Anthony, the trainer, had me do a little weight training and some sit ups. I will continue to do the sit ups but I think I will hold off on the weights right now. I want to work my lower back and cardio. I feel good. After the gym I took our dogs on a really long walk, then mowed back and front lawn, did some weeding. Good day.

My knee is still hurting a bit but not as bad as it was. I am going to get some pain killers so I can get a great nights sleep and not wake up with the raging back ache. I saw my Chiro yesterday and I feel loose today so that is good. My body get tight every three weeks and I need to get it cracked to help me loosen up.

I am hoping with more exercise I will not have the back pain, stomach bulge and knee prob....

One step at a time...

Is it Wednesday already?

So, I bet your wondering if I, we, have been keeping with the plan of going to the Gym each and every day.. Or doing three on and one off...

Well.... as they say somewhere back east... You bet cha!!! We have faithfully been going to 24 hour fitness each and every day except for yesterday as we both need a day of rest. My upper body is sore, my lower body is sore, I feel fantastic. What I mean by that is my body is sore and achy but not a sickly kind of achy.

My body, outside of recovering from working out, is at peace. I have a ways to go with weight loss. Watching my portion size is a challenge but I am keeping up with it as best I can.

If you have been reading this,,, The three of you, then you might have noticed I stopped taking pictures of what I have been eating. That is because I got tired of showing you all the trash I have been putting down my gullet. It has gotten better though. Outside of the cookies and milk of last night, I have eaten salads, little fast food. Not the every other meal, every day thing I was doing..

I will start putting in pics again of what I am eating and how much. It is hard to get the pics from the phone to the camera. Believe me when I say, the days are long and at the end of the day the last thing I want to do is start fiddling with my phone and the computer and etc..

We went to the gym today and I met with a trainer. He is 56 years old and is tall with good posture. Seems like a nice guy. I liked that he was not real comfortable selling us on the training program. Not because it is a bad program, because he trains and he does that well. He does not sell. I would rather have a great trainer who is an OK salesman than vice-versa.

Jenifer Leilani and I have to talk about how much we can spend to commit to this program. In the past, I have shied away from these type of things but I like the way this guy works and my wife, J L, is also interested and that thrills me....

So, I am sitting at my daughter and son-in-laws house while my daughter sleeps, the grandson sleeps, my wife it helping to prepare some meals for them and I am blogggggging...


Today I learned to use a rowing machine. I did a little weight work on some machines with Anthony who is the training I hooked up with. I also did some sit ups which did not hurt my back. That is a very good thing... I will be doing more of those.... Also walked daughters dogs for a long walk....

I am excited about this phase of my journey. I am hopeful with the right guidance, self praise and commitment from Jenifer Leilani to do it with me that I can really, really make a change in my life and a year from now look back at this blog and say....

"Wow, remember when I was heavy?"

I will put in pics tonight...

Resutls.....

So, We did go Saturday too. On Friday we went for a really long walk with the dogs then I walked my daughters dogs too...

Today is Sunday and we went today.... Where do you ask???

Why the Gym of course! I am feeling better each day. Physically and mentally. My back hurt like hell this morning but yesterday I had walk dogs, done the gym and mowed the lawn at my Son-in-law and daughters house. My back hurting is not a surprise. My left knee still bugs me but not as bad as at first and I am doing mostly elliptical so no major stress on the knees...

Today I was on the elliptical machine for 20 minutes, went to the stair master, then back to a treadmill.

Food today: Rice and meat. Eggs, toast and cereal. Rice and chicken.

Benefits: Energy dude, energy.....! Even better... Jenifer Leilani is with me every step of the way!

Three day on- one day off

So today we took a day off from the gym. Three days on and one day off. We did go for a walk with the dogs on a really nice trail.

I am tired. Less sore now. Also, I am noticing more energy throughout they day. I know that sounds weird after only three days but it is true, at least I think it is true..

My left knee is still hurting me with bothers me a lot. It is not like a hard hurt but it is annoying and I am sure if I over do something it will probably get bad fast. I will have it looked at soon as I really don't want anything to get in the way of my working out.

On the bright side, I am going to do the elliptical tomorrow again as I liked the feel of the workout it gave me and that it does not mess with my knee. Next week I want to try a spinning class. This is a class that is an hour, (I will do a half) of intense bicycling.

That should be a blast as I have done one before but I was hating it and had not done any working out before that...

This time it will be better!!!

Gymfest Day 3!

Day 3- Little bit harder... Did the elliptical for 30 minutes straight today.. My knee hurts, my back hurts... But really, hurts is the wrong word.. More like sore...


The knee, I did the elliptical for the knee so there was a little less pounding on it today..

Jenifer Leilani was there with me as always... We are committed to making this work!!

day 3 and going strong....

Day two of GYM FEST!!!!

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Day two of visiting the Gym.. Jenifer Leilani and I are on day two of GYM FEST! We are committed to visiting the gym each and every day and I want to run in an upcoming event in May...

Today she did the treadmill and so did I. I also did the stair climber for 10 minutes... It was hard...

Then we went to breakfast... YOU got to start somewhere! And we did not pig out at breakfast...

Oh yeah baby.. GYMFEST!!!




One more thing.. So, like I said, we went to breakfast after.. I had 3 eggs, scrambled. pancakes, short stack and two pieces of bacon and two sausage.. Right now my stomach feels a little upset... I am trying to track how I feel after I eat.... And now looking at what I eat.. I think I ate a little two much although it did not seem like it at the time..... Learning, learning, learning...

I went to the GYM!!

I went to the gym today.. Jenifer and I went together and spent 30 minutes on the treadmill... Finally.....

YEAH FOR ME!!!