Spiral

I have not worked out since last Sunday? I have been home and up and down. Eating, not over eating too much but eating... I have been sleeping a lot, waking up down.

I am feeling crappy. I am taking care of myself in my own way. I am hoping this passes soon. I am tired now as it is after 10PM. Being so I am being careful what I share as I am not so careful when I am tired.

So what is next? Tomorrow. Up and down, up and down....

Hello, my name is Belly

Hello, I am Belly.

I am Jay's best friend...

Jay wants to join this thing called Weight Watchers... He already paid for it but I do my best to keep him from thinking about it by reminding him about all the food he still has to eat..

Pizza..

I know he loves pizza, and eating out at restaurants and snacking on stuff and burgers and fries and creamy, dreamy fun food that makes me, Belly, so much more prevalent in his life. I am soooo big now, I feel like I am more apart of Jay than anything else anywhere!

Jay always knows I am there too, especially when he bends over to tie his shoe or tries to lay on me. I am so round he can't quite stay on his belly, (me) for very long because I make it uncomfortable for him. You see, I like to be in front. I like to be the first thing people see when they see Jay.. I wish they would acknowledge me more.. "My what a big belly you have!" Or, "Nice belly, how long did it take you to get that going?"

So, whenever Jay talks crazy like about diet stuff or too much exercise, I have to chime in and rumble and remind him there are restaurants and snacks and lots and lots of tasty food he has to eat NOW to help me stay up front and right there for him.... You know, if he did not need to put on shoes, I think he would have already forgotten his feet.....

Well, got to go, I just ate but I have to remind Jay another meal needs to arrive soon....

A day of rest - sort of

So, I did not do a workout today but after a big meal, I did go to the room, get on the elliptical and walk for a little while.. The treadmill here is broke..

Tomorrow is my last day here... YEAH!!!!! Don't get me wrong, I LOVE IT here but I miss my wife and dogs, my grandson, my daughter and son-in-law, etc....

Life is good. I have my ups and downs but life is good.

Just a short note today.. Maybe in the AM I will get it going on again and do some serious workout again!!!

Maybe,,, HELL YES I WILL!!!!!

Twenty Five and Down!!!!!

I just did 25 minutes on a bicycle in the workout room here and it was the best 25 minutes I have ever had on a workout room type bicycle. It was tough, fun and just plain great not to mention that I am so pumped right now for going that long....

When I get back to 24 hour's club I am going to have to rethink how I can make those bikes as rigorous as this one is... Man, that was awesome.. .I feel so accomplished right now...my arms are even sore... I did overhead stuff with them while on the bike... My body feels like WORKED! I think I am getting closer and closer to that "runners high" and I am lovin it... I can't wait until I am doing this without the extra belly!!!

I almost got a cramp in my leg during the workout so I had to adjust to make sure I did not freeze up... My arms are actually aching as I type this!!!!! GOOD for ME!!!


I have noticed my knee is not hurting anymore.. Maybe a little but that is it... I am taking two Excedrin PM's before bed so I don't wake up with such a backache and it seems to be helping with sleep and pain...

Any who... it is off to breakfast then work.... YEAH JAY FOR TODAY!!!

Pump up the Jam!

OK, so I am doing things right. I am going to the workout room each day. Today I did 25 minutes straight! I am proud of myself for that. The eating - although I still do not have that down, I am not stuffing myself either... I am pleasantly full after dinner tonight and lunch was the same.

I realized today that although I am carrying more than my fair share of weight, because I have been doing some cardio I feel better than I used to. I can really tell..

For example - when I was not working out I felt tired a lot and bloated and gaseous and sleepy. Now I know the sleepy was also the sleep deprivation from the apnea but even with that I still felt like crap. I felt physically weak, mentally exhausted - just like ache all the time.

It is weird, hard to really give you a picture, just like I was a differnt person. Now, even though I get winded, and I am fat, I have this huge belly, I am not extreamly out of shape. I don't get crazy hungry, I don't get cranky, I am not in pain or easily tired anymore. All this just from just getting some exercise like 20 to 25 minutes a day.......

.....RIGHT ON DUDE.....

And so it goes at the end of another good day...

Another day another test

I did go down to the workout room today. I was on the bicycle for 20 minutes. It is hard to motivate myself every single day but I am doing it.

I feel so larger than life right now and I wake up depressed. I talked with Jennifer Leilani (my wife) this morning and she really pulled me out of it. The thing is I wake up with a back ache every day and I know a lot of it has to do with the extra belly on my belly full of jelly.... You wake up look down and there it is.. BELLY... your back hurts, your not as rested as you could be, you bend over and you have to like breath out to do it.. It sucks... I saw this pill on TV that supposedly helps you lose belly fat... I swear I might just try it....

But at least when I go to the gym, or club or work out room, I can say I did something...

Eating is still a MAJOR challenge for me. One day at a time... Or rather one meal at a time...

Still. I am writing, getting some exercise and working through my frustrations... I guess that is all you can ask for....

Challenges

So, things have been different since Easter. I am on a work assignment. My first day I did not work out at all. The second, 7 minutes.... Today, 25.. Felt good today, felt really good.

I am not with my wife for the next several days and last night the strain showed.. How? I ate and ate and ate. I bought an 8 peice at the local market and ate it all... All 8 pieces... I woke up depressed. Looking down at the huge mound of belly I still have, feeling like just lying there like a lump. Then I thought about my blog. Seriously, I thought about my blog and how good I felt when I worked out, when I was working out hard and feeling the feeling of accomplishment.

So, I pushed myself to get dressed, texted my wife and went down to the gym and I did do 23 minutes on the elliptical and 5 on the bike.. I was done on the bike after it went up in the random mode which stopped my workout.....

Then I came to this computer to write it all down.... I need to stick to this program. I HAVE TO. If not, things will not change. I must lose this bulg of the belly.

That is all for now....

Well la de da

No, once again, I did not work out. I spent the day with my grandson, my daughter and my wife. I ran here, ran there... Well , drove... Spent time petting two sets of dogs.... It was a day of visiting....

I guess the good news is I spent the day with my family. It was kind of a Disney day. My little grandson was awesome, cute, fun, adorable... My daughter let me hold him and talk with him forever... My wife and I went to get some things we needed and took the dogs along part of the time...

I had a good day.

On the down side.... I tried to buy some pants t0day... I was a 44... Before that a 42.... I am now
a size 46..... 40 freaking 6.... I am larger than life...
So, yes, I finally found pants, and shorts to fit me... It took me three stores to find them.. So, yes that is very close to me sitting in that chair... That is how I feel. The belly is like jelly, it is always kind of swelly. I like to watch the telly and dream of no more belly....


So I go to sleep tonight thinking.. I need to HIT the GYM....

Perception

So, I have not gone to the gym since 4/4 that is 4 days.... Now when I woke up today I thought; "man, it has been a week since I have even worked out!"

Now I can see how the spiral in the past started. Not only has it not been a full week, it has only been 4 days. AND, not only has it not been a week, I did walk on my lunch break on Monday and Tuesday.

True, that is not truly working out but it is more exercise than no exercise. I am taking time to walk. I spent about 25 minutes to walk on lunch both days. So although I was not in the gym, I was doing something productive. And I can prove it to myself because my legs are a little sore as I sit here.

In the past, because I had nothing to regulate my progress, I would be down on myself, be angry, be in a spiral. So, I have not exercised in .............. ONE DAY. Today is day two and it is not over. so from 4 days to one day. I did something for me and for my body on both Monday and Tuesday. I am going good, I am still on track, I am still doing the thing that I do....

So instead of being down on myself, I am starting to take stock of what I am doing and being there saying: "Hey Jay! Nice job finding a way to get out there and do something towards a healthier you!"

So mote it be..........

Oh my aching back

I woke up this morning with a back ache. I am doing this almost every day now. I am not sure
if it is the bed or not. I am starting to think it is the bed and the way I sleep. I sleep kind of propped up due to having acid reflux years ago.

I will be in a situation soon where I can sleep on another bed for a little while.. (work related, no probs in the relationship)

I have to be at work early, have a good bye party after for a friend leaving the state and then I want to hit the gym.

That last part I know will be the hard part... Next week, all next week I am on at 8AM in the morning... (Yes, I know there is no 8AM at night thank you...)

I am hoping to be able to get up and go to the club early or at the very least go late... As I am off at 5PM I should be able to go in the afternoon....

Weight Watchers food plan should be here soon... I hope I am not putting too much faith into it but I do feel like I am into it right now. I am excited to get the last peace of the puzzle down... That is, I am getting some exercise; I am getting rest; now I just need to get the right foods in the right quantities...

Morning 24!

We went to the gym this morning as I promised my self we would last night. I am still having problems with my knee so I did 10 minutes on the
elliptical and then went to the bike for 20 minutes. I stood up on the bike on and off to work the knee as that is what I did in the X-bike class at Family fitness. It helped and I could really feel it in my legs when I did that. It was a good workout, not a great one. I was not really into it today---

BUT I did go and I did spend about 30 minutes there...

In about a week I should get my Weight Watchers stuff and I am excited about that.. REALLY.... Not joking there. I did the Jenny Graig for a year like 15 years ago and it worked the problem for me with Jenny is that they give you all this food to eat which make you dependent on the food. So once you hit goal and it is time to go back to eating your own food, you eat what you ate before you started. At least that's how it went for me.

With Weight Watchers I am thinking that they will teach you from the get go what to eat and how to regulate that with classes that are filled with real people. (not that Jenny was not)
I can get real feedback, support and a weigh in to help keep me on track. I bet I can get some real easy ideas from the people there to eat less.

I am telling you, with my food being regulated and on a plan that has been proven to work well for years and years, I really think I will be in some seriously better health by June.

I was going to say serious shape, but I am not working out with the intensity, at least today, that will put me in awesome shape, but good shape works for me now. A step at a time...

So, I am pumped that I went today, with my wife of course. I am pumped that I have time to get ready for work, get things together and go on with my bad ass day....

Pizza day.... And Crazy Bread...

We are the crazy couple... We having fun now... I lost it today... Pizza, Crazy Bread... Food... Just dinner though. Lunch and Breakfast was pretty healthy... I had a few eggs and oatmeal for breakfast and then lunch was chicken cooked with the George Forman cooker.. It was really good and took like 10 minutes... These picks are us around 11PM... Just havin fun...


I did mow the lawn, no workie outie... I will in the AM.. If I don't you will know..





As you can see.. It was yummy.. It flew all over my computer area...



Jenifer Leilani had some too!!

Then her evil hand tried to attack me... It was a ticklish experience...

It was my one day off this week..... But I work 8-5 next week and that is fine... I have all kinds of stuff to do this coming week.... I also have to fix the back fence... It is falling apart...


Bottom line on working out for me. I feel great when I do it. I get side tracked but thanks to this blog and you reading, I am doing better. I know I have a few readers and even though there are not a lot of comments, I know people do read it because I get comments at work and when I see people at some of the functions I go to.. Thanks for that.

I have to keep going, keep going, keep going.... And I will..

Sometimes you do, sometimes you don't

I did not work out on either Monday, Tuesday, or Wednesday. Just didn't, not excuse, just did not happen. I worked out today, 150 Heart Rate, about 20 minutes. I felt better when I was done. Much better...

It is a mystery to me. I love how I feel when I am done, but hate doing it sometimes, or rather, don't really feel like it...

So, here I am at the end of another day. I did my work out... Yeah for me...

Why the Zoolander shot? Well, I thought about working out and when I go I do have my Ipod, my towel and my look....!